Parents are home...hmmm...

So yeah...parents are back home now...independence...gone...quiet time...slowly diminishing...sense of responsibility...completely non-existent...yup...things are back to the way they were before =/

Kind of a weird thing happened on the car ride home from the airport...I started talkin' to my parents about "the future" (haha! don't you just love those "talks"?) and it was...to say the least...discouraging. let me explain...

First thing was...I started telling them that i was thinking of travelling to China if i didn't get into med school this year. sort of take a year off school, and see what kind of needs there were in China...help out at health facilities, get an idea of thier situation...that kind of thing...and their response?

"China is dangerous...you should think of teaching english in Taiwan. People in China...you can't trust them...they'll try to trick you...and your chinese isn't that great...no...we don't think that'd be such a great idea...you wouldn't be able to handle yourself over there, it's very different."

hmm...ok...at this point i'm biting my tongue and just trying to at least hear their reasons...but they just sort of went on about all of the bad stuff that was going on there and the bad stories...etc etc...

ok...so that was number one...THEN...we somehow got onto the topic of Richard. and to sum it up in a nutshell...my dad pretty much said "those people are all the same...you can try and help them...but they don't want to help themselves..."

and what upset me the most wasn't that he said this...cuz he's said it before and it never got to me...i guess what bothered me the most...was...that a part of me...believed it to be true! I started to think of the "shortcomings" of Richard...and it has been nagging away at me ever since!

I don't know what this is...is this a test of my faith? another attitude check from above? i'm really not sure...

so that was that. I'm not sure where i'm going with this...please do not get the wrong impression of my parents...i know that everything they have said was out of love and concern for me. They are not tyrants that do not want to help the poor or those in China
but i think i just need to really think about what they've said...and more importantly how that has had an effect on my passion for what i am doing.

Thanks again for listening you guys...whoever may be out there...heheh..it just helps to write it all down...take care...and God Bless!